I thought this love will never end…

“Rainy days never say good bye

To desire, when we are together,

Rainy days, growing in your eyes,

Tell me where’s my way…”

(Gazebo-“I like Chopin”)

The party was over…and there we were, in the pale light and the sweet sound of Chopin’s piano. After an evening full with polite words and meaningless smiles, small and empty talk, just to make everybody feel how important they are…hoping we’ll get all the support for our our new  cause. And it worked…wearing a light-blue dress and a perfect smile i was capable to make the polite conversation, ignoring the questions about my rich american fiancee (yes…someone said that and everybody took this news as real, even if i tried to deny)…

All i wanted, all i waited was to feel his arms around me. Peter’s arms…to dance with him, to touch him, to let him know he’s all i care about in the whole world. It felt so painful to pretend we’re only business partners, i could shout out loud that i’m in love…

-This evening was a complete success…ant it was all because of you, my sweet Aly. I’m so proud of you…you became such a classy business woman…

-No, Peter, it was…us. Every time we do something together, it’s just like magic. Thank you for believing in my idea and for supporting me in all these busy days. Can’t believe it’s over…

He pulled me closer to his body, kissing me softly. Magic was in the air…he looked in my eyes and i could see so much love, such a warm feeling…

-I love you…i whispered as my heart started to beat real fast…

-Aly…i have to ask you something…

I closed my eyes for one second, thinking that now is the perfect time. He’ll propose me…All my dreams will come true…a big house full with children…a backyard with a swing…

-…yes?…

-Who’s Philippe?

-…

-Aly…if you don’t wanna tell me, it’s ok. But, you know, he’s sending you red roses every day, people started to comment…they all think you’re with Matt…and it’s not good for our image on the market…

I tried hard not to cry…after all i promised myself to be stronger. The only thing he cared about was the business. And me…foolish dreams…

-I’ll tell you…Philippe is a friend of Tess. She introduced him to me and we talked a few times. Then he started to send me the roses. But why you care about this? It’s not like he’s the first guy who sends me flowers…or should i tell him to send the roses to my apartment? To avoid the comments…you know i never would do anything to affect your business…

-Now you’re being ironic…

-Not at all…i just thought you’re gonna ask me something else…

He smiled at me, looking deep in my eyes…

-Aly…i thought about something…we are so good together…maybe we should get married…what do you say?

It was not the kind of proposal i was dreaming about…but still…it was him…my only love. My eyes was filled with happy tears…

-Are you saying…you’re asking me to…Peter…you know how much i dreamed about this moment…

He continued talking like he didn’t saw my reaction. Like he had something to get off his chest…or a message to send…

-Of course…we should talk to our lawyers first…to have the prenuptial agreement ready in time. You agree with this, right, Aly? In case we’ll decide to divorce it will be much easier if we…you know, a divorce could be expensive and messy…it’s better to sign a few papers and we’re over with all the complications…

I felt like the sky was falling down over me…my knees was weakening and i felt like all the blood was drained out of me.

-Aly, honey…are you all right? Did you eat something today? Or just coffee? You’re so pale…like you’re gonna pass out…let’s seat somewhere…

I pulled myself from his arms…

-It’s over, Peter…

-What do you mean?

-We are over…so over…i can’t even look in your eyes now…i need air…i can’t breath in your presence…

-Don’t go…please, Aly…don’t leave like this…you’re not feeling good…you need to eat something and to sleep…and how do you mean we’re over…we were talking about marriage…

It was too late…i was running outside, away from him, away from this relationship that caused me so much pain…

The night was dark and cold…my tears were a painful reminder of so many other tears i cried for him…the phone interrupted my thoughts…it was Philippe…

-Hello, Alicia, sorry for calling you so late…i have a message from Tess on my cell…i think it’s for you…she say that she left Monte Carlo for a while and wish you all the best…something about an unfinished business in the US…want me to forward the message to you?

-Philippe…

-You cried? I can tell by the sound of your voice…now what happened?

-…nothing…me and Peter…we’re over, this time is for good…Philippe…can i come to your place? I need someone to hold me…i don’t think i can make it trough without you…

-You wanna spend the night with me? Are you sure? You’re more then welcomed…

I noted the address and took the first cab…thinking all the time that i’m probably crazy…searching for love in places where only madness lies ahead…

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