No more masquerade

“Wish you well, I cannot stay
You deserve an award for the role that you played
No more masquerade, you’re one lonely star.”

(Madonna-“Take a bow”)

Belgrade, Serbia 

Henri was standing in front of me with a sad smile.

-I just wanna say thank you, Alicia. For defending me like that…the things you said about me…

-It’s all true, Henri. You’re the brain behind our success, the real value inside this company. Not to mention you’re modest enough to promote our products and not yourself. My father is lucky to have you! And, believe me, i’ll never allowed anybody to offend you like they did. I don’t care about their reasons…the fact that you’re american does not give them the right to…

-…i’m half american, my mother is french…

-that’s my point exactly! It doesn’t matter! You could be half alien, they still don’t have the right to talk to you like this! God! I felt like i’m gonna explode when they said those horrible things! I’m even sorry we sign the contract with them!

-Don’t be! You probably saved the company…even if you were about to start the third world war! But…how did he said? Right…”You’re not only beautiful and intelligent…you have a strong personality as well. And we are proud to have such a strong minded business partner.”

Henri started to laugh. I was thinking this is the first time i see him so relaxed. We knew each other for so long, but all this time he never spoke one single kind word to me. Like he could read my mind, he continued:

-I’m really sorry for all the mean things i said to you all this time. You’re not like i though…you’re…

-Henri, please sit down. I have to tell you something and you’re not gonna like it…

-I can imagine…and i probably deserve it…

-It’s not about you…or me. It’s about the company you’re working for. My father did some risky investments and he found himself in the situation to sell. That happened a few months ago, before i even knew Phillipe. Yes, he’s the new owner. He owned the company when i started to date him…i didn’t knew about any of this. I returned to the company thinking i’ll be working in my family business and when i found out…i was devastated. Not for losing the company…for being manipulated like this…

-What do you mean? Manipulated?

-Yes, Phillipe said he’ll return the business to my father if i’ll accept being in a relationship with him…a serious relationship.

-Oh, my God! Alicia…that’s prostitution! Modern prostitution! I bet your father is furious…knowing how protective he is with you…

-Then you’ll be shocked…Yes, he was furious at first. But tonight…you know what he told me when i called him to tell him about our success?

-What?

-He said: “Ali, just think about this. Phillipe seem to really care about you…don’t let your pride ruin something that could be great for both of you…after all, you and Phillipe had a relationship before you found out about all this. And if the company returns to family…that’s even better!”

-No! I can’t believe this! Your father is brainwashed? That’s beyond manipulation…

-I told him that, in this moment, my pride is all i have. And i’ll keep my dignity no matter what! Even with the price of loosing the only family i still have. So…i saved the company…his precious company…And that’s all! I’m leaving, Henri…that’s my resignation letter, please give it to Phillipe…

-Wait! Alicia…where are you going? It’s late in the evening…you don’t even have your car. It’s crazy…

-I got my passport and i have money…i’ll take the bus. Honestly…i don’t know where i’m going, i just don’t have the straight to go back. I have nothing left there…no one…

I wanted to sound strong, but i felt overwhelmed by sadness.

-Don’t go…Alicia, if all you said it’s true…i don’t wanna work for that guy. I never liked Phillipe…i never understood this strange friendship between your father and him. And now…what you told me…it’s disgusting…But i need time to think about all this. It’s all so sudden…i need to speak to your father before doing anything.

-Take your time, Henri, you got every right. And don’t forget that they depend on you, not the other way around! I have to go, i really wanna be gone when Phillipe returns.

-Have you ever ridden a motorcycle?

-What?…no, never…

-All right…you’ll have your chance tonight! We’re leaving together…you’re lucky i’m crazy enough to help you escape from this madness. But i still wanna talk to your father. Deal?

-You mean…

-That’s right. We’re leaving in ten minutes, after i speak to a friend of mine to make a reservation…Alicia, i hope you told me the truth, cause i’m risking everything here…ok…ready?

-Where are we going?

-Away from this place…don’t worry, we’re not crossing any ocean…ok, my partner in crime…

-Me? Partner in crime? No, Henri…the crime was already committed…they killed my trust and my faith…

(to be continued)

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Never sell my soul…

“I know you think you’d never be mine
Well that’s okay, baby, I don’t mind
That shy smile’s sweet, that’s a fact
Go ahead, I don’t mind the act.”

(Enrique Iglesias-“Sad eyes”)

Work! Stop thinking about him! Just work and ignore the rest! How can you do that? Thinking of another man when Phillipe is right here, next to you? Just keep working!

-Hey, you two love birds! The boss want to talk to you and i got the pleasure to tell you that it’s serious! Can’t wait to see your faces when he’s done with you…

Now what i’m going to do? My dad must know about me and Phillipe…it’s against the rules of the company…and i signed the contract knowing this! And look how mean is this guy saying all this…he doesn’t even pretend to like me…

-Phillipe…what if he…

He smiled at me and took me by my shoulders.

-So what? Let him find out! What can your father do to you, princess? Throw you out of the company? Don’t think so…He’ll be angry for a while, but i guess he’ll be like that no matter who you’ll be dating. His precious little girl…no man will ever be good enough for you, Alicia. So, relax and let me do all the talking. I’m your lawyer, right?

And here we are! In my father’s office…he’s looking so serious. I try to read in his eyes and i see more than anger. Or a completely different feeling…he seems hurt…and i feel so sorry but…

-I heard some rumours…And before i’ll say anything, i wanna hear it from you, Alicia. What is going on here? How could you do that? You disappointed me terribly. You got a talent of choosing them…

-Dad…i never meant…

I’m trying so hard to look brave but i feel my hands shaking…i don’t know what to say, i don’t know what i did…and why is he so upset. And i feel like crying. Phillipe took my hand, i just hope he doesn’t make it worst…

-And why are you talking to your daughter like this? You ask her to respect this company when you’re the only one who’s disrespectful here. What do you wanna hear? Details? She’s an adult, perfectly capable to make her own decisions! It’s not your business who’s she dating outside work. You should really apologize to her. And to me!

-Phillipe, get out of my office!

-Your office? Don’t make me laugh! You’re nothing but an old fool talking like this to me…

My God, how can he talk like this to my father? I hardly recognize him…

-Phillipe, don’t talk like this to my dad! He has every right to be upset, you know that! And if he’s the owner of the company, so if he tells you to get out of the office…

-So, are you ready to tell her the truth? Or should i do it?

-What truth? Dad…what’s going on here?

-Alicia…i didn’t want you to find out like this. We had a few hard years…i made some risky investments and i lost it…Our company…your company. You’re dating the new owner…

I can’t be hearing right! A nightmare…he’s having tears in his eyes. What am i doing now? Can’t stay here anymore, i need time to figure a way out of this. I have to go out!

-Alicia…baby, stop running like this! We need to talk! Come here…this room is perfect!

-No, Phillipe, let me go! I don’t wanna talk to you. You’re a thief…you stole my dad’s work. My company! Don’t touch me, i’m sick of you!

-You will talk to me and i will touch you! Let me lock this door…ok. You’re acting like a child. Again…and i’m really tired of this attitude. I did not stole anything. It’s the way i make money. Buying and selling…I think i told you i’m a business man, right? What’s these? Tears…again. I thought you’re a business woman, but i see you’re just a scared little girl. Let me kiss you, you know i can’t stand to see you cry…

-Don’t you dare! These tears are out of anger! We are over! You never loved me…i hope you had fun cause you’ll never touch me again!

-Baby, don’t be silly. Of course i love you…why do you think i heaven’t already sell this company? Because it’s yours! I’m giving it back to you…silly girl…Come here, stop fighting with me, i have no intention to harm you. Do you like the way i’m holding you, baby? I want you to relax…

He started to kiss me while in my mind the news were overwhelming. He’ll give me back my company. He’s serious about this.

-When?

-When you’re get it back? After the tour…i wanna see you taking charge. Winning…because you’re a winner. Just like me, like it or not!

-So, all i have to do is to make a good job on the Eastern-Europe’s market? Sign a few contracts? That’s all? And you’ll give me back…

-Alicia…that’s not a toy! We’re not two child fighting over a toy…we’re partners. Show me you’re an adult, assume our relationship as well…be a leader and it’s yours! And yes…i’m only human, i want you to accept the engagement ring…that should be a part of our partnership…

-Then, you can keep it to yourself! And stick it in your…

-Now that’s the way a business woman is talking? Baby…let’s make it clear: it’s the last time you’re offending me!

-I’m not for sail, Phillipe! You cannot buy me! I won’t sell myself, but i’ll work really hard to get back what belongs to my family! And regarding our relationship…

-You’re angry now…we are fine. I’m the same man, i love you even more since i told you the truth. I’m loosing my patience sometimes because you’re too much…But you’re young and rebel…it’s understandable. I promise you i’ll give you back the company, ok? No matter if you’re sleeping with me or not! Just let me see you on the tour…i wanna prove you i was right. You’re a leader, like me and with a little guidance…

-Promise? You’ll sign the papers…

-Yes, silly! Now, can we change the subject? I wanna make you happy…and loved…

(to be continued)

I wanna change my world…

“I wanna hold you close
Under the rain
I wanna kiss your smile
And feel the pain
I know what’s beautiful
Looking at you
In a world of lies
You are the truth.”

(Westlife feat. Diana Ross-“When you tell me that you love me”)

Eight years ago…

-Tell me about him…this guy you’re in love with…you said he’s older? How much older?

-Like 30 and something…

-C’mon Aly…you know exactly how old is he…you said his name is Peter? Wait a minute…he’s…

-I know, dad! Now you’re gonna give me the speech about how he’s gonna use me and i’m gonna get hurt. And how i need someone more close to my age…a nice young man from a nice family…

-Sweety…you’re only 20…you’re smart, beautiful and you have your future ahead. You really wanna be in a relationship with a 35 years old man? What do you think he wants from you? A family? I’m sorry i cannot agree to this!

-I didn’t ask for your opinion, dad! We love each other, there’s nothing you can do about that…

-You love him, i can imagine that. He has style, charisma, experience…he makes you feel important…but have you ever wondered what is gonna happened when he’ll get bored? Because in a few month he will…

-I can’t believe that! So, you don’t think he can love me? Because i’m so unattractive and boring, right? I’m so lucky to have your money…other wise no guy would ever look at me! It’s so good to know the way you really think about me…

-Aly…you misunderstood me. You’re not the problem here…he is. You’re too good for someone like him…

-You know, dad…i heard that a thousand times before! No one is good enough for me! I think i’m old enough to make my own decisions! He love me, he told me that…it’s all that matters to me. And if you’re not ok with this…it’s your problem! Peter and I we’re gonna get married and have children some day…

Now…

-Alicia…did you heard any word i said to you? I know you’re tired, but as soon as you sign this, you’re free! You can forget all about him and concentrate on your real future. You talked to your father?

-Yes, he’s so happy…it’s like his dream to see me working in his company…away from Peter and modelling…

-away from a toxic and abusive relationship, Alicia! And away from a world that can only harm you…you know i’m right!

-…so, tell me…how much is my dad paying you? All the investigation…and baby-sitting me…pretending you’re my friend, gaining my confidence. And one more thing…the seduction was a part of a plan? The red roses…they must costed a lot. And what you said…you’ll have my heart before having my body…so romantic. My dad knows about this too? If i wanna sleep with you…how much is it? Tell me, Phillipe…am i rich enough or should i borrow some money from my dad?

-I understand you’re upset…but i won’t allowed you to talk like this to me…

-Really? And what are you going to do about this?

-Listen to me and listen very careful, Alicia. I told you the truth. Your father hired me when you started dating Matt again. Because he knew about his past…My job was to make sure he wont be around you anymore, witch i did. But then you showed up…in my hotel room, crying in my arms. And the image i had about you was changed completely. After your father told me many times how immature, impulsive and spoiled you are…it was like a revelation…

-What do you mean by revelation?

-About myself…that i can love again. Seeing you so hurt with tears in your eyes, feeling your body trembling in my arms, knowing how deep and beautiful can you really feel…i didn’t cared anymore about your father, it was all about you. To love you…protect you, even from yourself if i have to…And i lied to you…it was wrong, i know, but it was not a crime. So, don’t punish me for carrying! And don’t insult me anymore, i wont take it, not from you, not from anybody else. I’m not your enemy…

-I almost believe you…

-Come here…i wanna feel you in my arms. Close your eyes…everything will be ok, i promise you this.

-Because you’re here to save me, right?

-…because i’m here to make sure you’ll never feel like a victim of your own destiny. This is not an option anymore. I’ll give you the power to control your life. And the will to do it…