Just an empty place

“Where do broken hearts go
Can they find their way HOME
Back to the open arms
Of a LOVE that’s waiting there…”

(Withney Houston-“Where do broken hearts go”)

Two weeks ago

-Ready to face the world, Ali? If it were up to me we would never go back…but i have to deal with the consequences too…

-What do you mean? You heaven’t done nothing bad…

-Ali, you’re the sweetest girl ever…but i did a few things…i’m not proud of myself! I completely lost my self-control…and maybe some day you’ll blame me…

-no…never! What we did…we did it together…i was lonely and sad…and i flirted with you the whole time…i’m assuming my role in the game…remember, partners in crime?

-Ali, the crime was already committed…

-now, stop it, Henry…you copy my words…

-so, what will you do when you’ll arrive at Monte Carlo?

-the only thing i can do: stay away from Phillipe, my father, their company…and search for my love, my true love…maybe i’ll never find him, but at least i gotta try! So, take me back in the jungle, i have a few snakes to lock away in cages…

today

-…the ring just looks amazing on your finger…did i told you today how happy you made me? My fiancee…

-interesting choice of the stone…a black diamond…

-you deserve every diamond in the world, princess…i know it’s not traditional but…our relationship isn’t traditional neither…my love…

-no…not traditional at all…remember how you proposed me? I was at the hospital with little Roby, scared to death…and you told me about that expensive treatment in Tokyo…and you were offering to pay it…you said, in front of his parents, that you don’t need anything in return…anything except…

-except for you to accept my marriage proposal…

-correct, Phillipe! So, Helen started to cry, almost kneeling in front of me…it was horrible…and i found myself in the worst situation any person could be…

-princess…i have every right to fight for your love…tell me, is it so wrong? You saved little Roby’s life…Helen is happy, we are happy…your father is happy…i gave him back the company…like you wanted…

-I’m not happy! I didn’t saved Roby’s life, God did this! Your money helped a lot…but it was God’s choice…

He started to laugh, holding my hands and kissing my fingers.

-…then, Alicia, my love…just pretend you’re accepting God’s will…like a good saint that you are! Hope you’re not gonna bring this “saint-attitude” to our bedroom, princess…What, you’re blushing? Now…come here…that’s the sweetest thing i ever saw…

-…

-i was so proud of you today…you’re the leader i always wanted you to be. If your father could see you…by the way, how does he feels? Do you think he’s strong enough to be told the good news?

-he’s recovering…but, please, give him more time…he just had a heart attack…any stress could kill him…we’ll just tell him at the right moment…

-Alicia…when? we’re getting married in a few weeks…

I started to feel like suffocating…like every time he mention the word “marriage”. Only this time it got worst…

-baby…drink some water…breath calmly…it’s alright…you almost had a panic attack…every time i try to talk to you about our wedding…and it’s going to happened…

-why? why the rush? why the pressure? What do you want from me…i already accepted it…

-…nothing, my love…only your heart. Is it too much to ask? After all i did for you…tell me princess? How much pain and suffering do you need to see around you…so you could realize that in this world it’s not just you? There’s other people, Alicia…you’re only thinking about yourself…so selfish…but you’re young, we have time to change it…

He started to caress my hair…kissing my neck…pressing me against his body…

-…actually, Alicia…i lied…it’s not just your heart that i want…come to bedroom and i’ll show you what i mean…now, don’t act so scared, there’s nothing wrong in making love to your future husband…

Making love to my future husband…his words were burning my heart…but do i still have a heart? Sometimes everything he said seems to make sense…maybe i love him but i’m just afraid…after all, marriage was always such a delicate issue to me…

But what if i don’t?

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Never sell my soul…

“I know you think you’d never be mine
Well that’s okay, baby, I don’t mind
That shy smile’s sweet, that’s a fact
Go ahead, I don’t mind the act.”

(Enrique Iglesias-“Sad eyes”)

Work! Stop thinking about him! Just work and ignore the rest! How can you do that? Thinking of another man when Phillipe is right here, next to you? Just keep working!

-Hey, you two love birds! The boss want to talk to you and i got the pleasure to tell you that it’s serious! Can’t wait to see your faces when he’s done with you…

Now what i’m going to do? My dad must know about me and Phillipe…it’s against the rules of the company…and i signed the contract knowing this! And look how mean is this guy saying all this…he doesn’t even pretend to like me…

-Phillipe…what if he…

He smiled at me and took me by my shoulders.

-So what? Let him find out! What can your father do to you, princess? Throw you out of the company? Don’t think so…He’ll be angry for a while, but i guess he’ll be like that no matter who you’ll be dating. His precious little girl…no man will ever be good enough for you, Alicia. So, relax and let me do all the talking. I’m your lawyer, right?

And here we are! In my father’s office…he’s looking so serious. I try to read in his eyes and i see more than anger. Or a completely different feeling…he seems hurt…and i feel so sorry but…

-I heard some rumours…And before i’ll say anything, i wanna hear it from you, Alicia. What is going on here? How could you do that? You disappointed me terribly. You got a talent of choosing them…

-Dad…i never meant…

I’m trying so hard to look brave but i feel my hands shaking…i don’t know what to say, i don’t know what i did…and why is he so upset. And i feel like crying. Phillipe took my hand, i just hope he doesn’t make it worst…

-And why are you talking to your daughter like this? You ask her to respect this company when you’re the only one who’s disrespectful here. What do you wanna hear? Details? She’s an adult, perfectly capable to make her own decisions! It’s not your business who’s she dating outside work. You should really apologize to her. And to me!

-Phillipe, get out of my office!

-Your office? Don’t make me laugh! You’re nothing but an old fool talking like this to me…

My God, how can he talk like this to my father? I hardly recognize him…

-Phillipe, don’t talk like this to my dad! He has every right to be upset, you know that! And if he’s the owner of the company, so if he tells you to get out of the office…

-So, are you ready to tell her the truth? Or should i do it?

-What truth? Dad…what’s going on here?

-Alicia…i didn’t want you to find out like this. We had a few hard years…i made some risky investments and i lost it…Our company…your company. You’re dating the new owner…

I can’t be hearing right! A nightmare…he’s having tears in his eyes. What am i doing now? Can’t stay here anymore, i need time to figure a way out of this. I have to go out!

-Alicia…baby, stop running like this! We need to talk! Come here…this room is perfect!

-No, Phillipe, let me go! I don’t wanna talk to you. You’re a thief…you stole my dad’s work. My company! Don’t touch me, i’m sick of you!

-You will talk to me and i will touch you! Let me lock this door…ok. You’re acting like a child. Again…and i’m really tired of this attitude. I did not stole anything. It’s the way i make money. Buying and selling…I think i told you i’m a business man, right? What’s these? Tears…again. I thought you’re a business woman, but i see you’re just a scared little girl. Let me kiss you, you know i can’t stand to see you cry…

-Don’t you dare! These tears are out of anger! We are over! You never loved me…i hope you had fun cause you’ll never touch me again!

-Baby, don’t be silly. Of course i love you…why do you think i heaven’t already sell this company? Because it’s yours! I’m giving it back to you…silly girl…Come here, stop fighting with me, i have no intention to harm you. Do you like the way i’m holding you, baby? I want you to relax…

He started to kiss me while in my mind the news were overwhelming. He’ll give me back my company. He’s serious about this.

-When?

-When you’re get it back? After the tour…i wanna see you taking charge. Winning…because you’re a winner. Just like me, like it or not!

-So, all i have to do is to make a good job on the Eastern-Europe’s market? Sign a few contracts? That’s all? And you’ll give me back…

-Alicia…that’s not a toy! We’re not two child fighting over a toy…we’re partners. Show me you’re an adult, assume our relationship as well…be a leader and it’s yours! And yes…i’m only human, i want you to accept the engagement ring…that should be a part of our partnership…

-Then, you can keep it to yourself! And stick it in your…

-Now that’s the way a business woman is talking? Baby…let’s make it clear: it’s the last time you’re offending me!

-I’m not for sail, Phillipe! You cannot buy me! I won’t sell myself, but i’ll work really hard to get back what belongs to my family! And regarding our relationship…

-You’re angry now…we are fine. I’m the same man, i love you even more since i told you the truth. I’m loosing my patience sometimes because you’re too much…But you’re young and rebel…it’s understandable. I promise you i’ll give you back the company, ok? No matter if you’re sleeping with me or not! Just let me see you on the tour…i wanna prove you i was right. You’re a leader, like me and with a little guidance…

-Promise? You’ll sign the papers…

-Yes, silly! Now, can we change the subject? I wanna make you happy…and loved…

(to be continued)